In this Almost right month relationship. We’ve had a lot of UPS and downs. And possible more Downs than UPS. I’ve sat here thinking and just thinking about me and you. And the person i’m becoming. and the person you have became. At someone point, we went our separate ways. I’ve failed.to figure out when that happened. At some point, I lost hope. Not hope, but I became scared. You’ve heard me say it many times before, and i’m sure your sick of it. I’m sure , your to.the point where your on edge, and I don’t blame you. being with you has made me realize that I can’t run anymore. That at some point someone is going to tell me how it’s going to be and I have to except. Being with you I have realized that I can’t be a kid for long, that I have to.give other people a chance to talk. That I can’t rely on one person for.the rest of my life. That when someone says some thing they mean it. Being with you, I have realized that, it’s my fault for the things that have happened. For so long I would get mad at the smallest thing and hold them against you. And here I am, begging for forgiveness. Being with you has made me the strong.person to day. But it has also made me realize I CAn not hurt the People that care the most. Being with you has shown me the UPS and downs of a real relations.ship. Being with you has showed and gave me the opportunity to trust and love someone with all I have. To finally not be afraid anymore. but one last thing I have realized being with you doesn’t make me have to grow up.fast. Doesn’t make me.have to act like a adult. That I need to see the importance and views.of.others that I need to open up for once and nos. be so hard headed.
I.lied to you twice.. And you sit there, and stay calm. And stay with me? Douglas Julian McNeil. Your not my boyffriend, your my boy. My baby and my entire life. And baby steps is what I am willing to take, if it means one day you’ll be in my arms. I know at the moment you can’t look at me, but one day. This will all be made up to you. I hope you smile, and just forgive me. And if you don’t. I’m glad you still love me.
